Dealing With What I'm Dealt...

01:15 pm - :(

pride has taken over...i refuse to back down!

my heart hurts.

Current Mood: disappointed

11:04 pm - GPA

3.854...i'll take it.

08:54 pm - quesitonable disappointment

I'm done, I'm done, I'm done. This semester has been somewhat of a drag (except for my amazing staff). Now it's over. I should be more exicted but I'm not.

I don't want to go home. My single is my home now. Oscar's room used to be my second home but now I just have one home. A room all my own that is my home.

I have 2 A-'s and an A so far. I hope I get 2 more A's. I'm pretty sure I will (wishful thinking).

ESPN plays in the background.

I'm bored.

Current Mood: melancholy

01:41 pm - end of the semester craziness

I have to much work to catch up on this week since it is the last full week of class. i keep telling myself that to try to bring my hopes up. It doesn't seem to be working. Something absolutely amazing did make my year yesterday, though. I wrote an e-mail to Junot Diaz a couple of weeks ago. I came across his email address after googling him when I was bored and didn't feel like reading Poe or Dickinson or Shakespeare. So yesterday, Junot Diaz wrote back to me! It was cool.

Current Mood: touched

11:24 am - :)

So I read this book in the summer that my cousin lent me... I still haven't given it back because I am in love with this writing. It's called Drown and it's by a Dominican writer named Junot Diaz. He is absolutely amazing in the way he describes his life growing up in DR, his crazy family, being an immigrant in the US, ect.

So I brought in one of his stories to creative writing the other day and led a discussion. My professor loved that I was inspired by him so she's getting him to come to Hofstra and she wants me to help her plan it and introduce him before he begins his reading. She is beyond amazing. I think she thinks I have potential. Junot Diaz makes me think I have potential. I'm gonna be a writer when I grow up!!

Current Mood: ecstatic

04:16 pm

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

Current Mood: tired

04:47 pm - 20!

It's my birthday...yaaaaay!!!

Current Mood: excited

11:33 pm - in the gray

I spent the day at home Saturday to celebrate my birthday early with my family since it does fall on a Wednesday this year. Things at home are kind of melancholy now so it wasn’t much of a celebration. My brother has begun to pursue his NYPD career against my mother’s internal wishes, my best friend is moving to D.C. with her boyfriend because he has a job offer there, my brother’s going away to college next fall (hopefully), and my Mom is losing her “babies.” As for me, I am completely stuck in limbo and it sucks. I don’t know what this year, or next, or the one after that will bring and it’s driving me to an early grave. And on top of that, my best friend of 14 years is leaving :( I guess twenty is that kind of age, filled with indecisiveness, the urge to break away, just pure utter confusion. I feel like the whole world is moving while I am at a standstill. Oh well-I really hope I have a good birthday to kind of mask all this stuff that’s going on. The good news is that I would not rather be in limbo anywhere but here.

Current Mood: okay

02:47 pm - new perspective

Sooo, everything's going really well. I'm starting to get into the hang of the RA thing. The week started out rough but one little event, about which I choose not to speak, changed my whole outlook on life, as cliche as that may sound. I am a whole new person now, one who will not whine about being tired or overworked, one who will not stress every so-called hurdle, one who will take her responsibilities seriously but who will enjoy every second along the way. I promise to be happier than usual from this moment on because there's no point in sweating the small stuff.

Thank you, Jessica!

PS- Did I mention how much I'm loving my residents and my staff? Well, I am...a lot!

Current Mood: optimistic

10:04 pm - surprisingly content

In about a week my fifth semester here at Hofstra will commence and I am not at all upset about getting back to the grind. I feel like this semester is gonna be the best yet with the ra thing, my new friends, my baby of course and especially our singles and his new car :) Yep, thats right, no more having to deal with annoying roommates, no more relying on people for rides, and no more lirr. yay! Even though I'm sick right now and I have to work check-ins everyday this week, except for Thurs. when Oscar's driving down, I'm excited. September is gonna rule for more reasons that one, one also being my birthday! Yay again!! I <3 Hofstra!

Current Mood: sick